I am not quite sure what we were even praying about when I noticed it last week. I motioned to my girlfriend with my head and eyes to look at my left hand. My pinky was fluttering slowly, trying to extend on its own. Then, just like that, it was sticking completely straight up in the air, with the rest of my hand lying flat on the hand rest. At first I wrote it off as a muscle twitch or spasm but the muscle just refused to relax. I proceeded to try to move my pinky. It shook a bit at first before falling back down to the arm rest. I thought, why not, and tried to move it again. The other fingers kicked in. All of a sudden I was voluntarily lifting my left wrist and fingers for the first time in over four years.
I wasn’t sure what to think. It’s not as if this was something I had been working on. I hadn’t been sitting around staring at my left hand trying to move it every day. Yet, here I was watching my hand move. I didn’t want to stop to ensure I wasn’t imagining anything. Believing in healing is one thing. Actually seeing muscles, joints, and in this case digits moving that have not moved for over four years seems almost unbelievable when actually watching them in action- although it shouldn’t be in any sense of the word. Genesis 18:14 asks, “Is anything too hard for the Lord?” Although I assume the question is meant to be rhetorical, I wonder if sometimes my answer is “Well, maybe…”
People are often asking me about my physical status so I figured I would post the video on the Flat On My Back Facebook page. Since the new movement hardly changed anything functionally, I didn’t think others would necessarily find it a big deal. Don’t get me wrong, I was pretty excited but the excitement I gained from it mainly had to do with ways I personally experienced God as a result. However, the response to the video was overwhelming with texts, emails, and comments on social media. It seemed from the comments that many others were surprised as well.
It made me wonder how often we put God in a box that make sense to us. Why are we so easily impressed or even surprised with miraculous breakthrough?
It reminded me of the story in the book of John when Jesus is inviting people to follow him. Jesus calls out Nathanael by name and Nathanael responds with, “How could you possibly even know me? We’ve never seen each other before.” Jesus seems casual with his response, “Oh, I saw you under the fig tree.” Nathanael drops to his knees and declares, “You are the son of God, the King of Israel!” Jesus’ response is classic: “You believe because I told you I saw you under the fig tree?” I envision Jesus’ eyebrows raised with a smirk on his face while thinking to himself, “Wow, you’re easily impressed.” And then, knowing what Nathanael is going to witness in the coming days- from Jesus feeding 5000 people, to calming a storm, to being murdered on a cross only to rise again three days later- Jesus has to chuckle when he says, “Oh… you’ll see greater things than that.” (See John 1:43 – 50).
It sure was awesome seeing my hand move on its own for the first time since 2009. God says not to despise small beginnings (Zechariah 4:10) and I am going to stay thankful for every breakthrough no matter how small it may seem. At the same time though, I don’t ever want to low-ball or be shocked by what God is capable of doing. I want to expect the greater things in store not only in my physical body but also in the richness of relationships, new and exciting opportunities, and seeing God’s power on display in the details of my day to day life. In the book of Ephesians, Paul says that God “is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine.” A finger and a hand moving? That’s just the tip of the iceberg. I fully believe I will see greater things than that in the coming days.
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